My thoughts for the day: When does life get easier?
Is there even an answer to that question? I honestly believed that once I became an adult, life was going to be so much better.
I suppose that’s one of my flaws, I’m a hopeless daydreamer. Always thinking that things are magically going to fall into place, and everything will be perfect.
It’s funny that I still actually believe that, even after the countless disappointments life has thrown at me. Every time I think I’m getting close to figuring things out, the rug gets pulled out from under me.
I seem to be destined for a life of mediocrity and let downs. These are the thoughts that run through my head when I’m having a “bad” day.
Yes, I’m having a bad…moment. I’m feeling down, depressed and frustrated. I just don’t understand life sometimes, you know?
I feel like I’m a good person. Not perfect, but I do my best to treat people with kindness and respect.
I help those in need whenever I can, I give even when I don’t have much to give.
And yet, the universe keeps wanting to knock me down.
My counselor would tell me that this isn’t true, and that life is just…life. Stuff happens, things go wrong.
And while the rational side of me knows this…my emotionally irrational side is screaming, “The universe is out to get you!!!”
I feel like, I don’t want for much, I just want to be…content. That’s all. Right now, content feels like it’s a million miles away. I really don’t like days like these.
On the bright side, tomorrow is a new day. Maybe tomorrow will be better. For now, I think I’ll go hide under my blanket away from the world and responsibilities.
In the meantime, I’ll still be wondering, “when does life get easier?”
Do any of you know the answer? Or have you at least gotten close? If so, I’d love to know how you got there.
Hope all of you are having a good night. Don’t worry, I have good days too. Thanks for listening.
If you haven’t already, check out my first blog post – it gives you some background, which will probably help this post make more sense.
I think I’ll find a good murder mystery to read, books have always been a great way to escape the world. At least for a little while.