I’m feeling very lost and confused, and I have no idea why.
I had no idea when I started my journey of recovery from my anxiety and depression, it would leave me feeling so lost and confused.
I’m not even sure exactly how I feel. I feel better, much better than I did before I began this journey to find myself. I’ve been able to overcome my negative thinking and replace these thoughts with positive ones. My anxiety is much more under control, and I don’t feel depressed.
So why am I feeling lost and confused?
Have any of you ever experienced anything like this? It’s kind of like feeling good, yet being unsure of how you’re feeling at the same time. Sort of stuck, in a way. It’s a hard feeling to describe. It also feels a little lonely, but not in a sad sense of the word.
Ha, it’s frustrating trying to even explain what the hell I’m feeling. Putting feelings into words is not always the easiest thing to do. I suppose this is because sometimes, there are no accurate words to describe certain feelings. In a rut? Maybe so.
Either way you wanna put it, here I sit, lost and confused. Wondering what I’m supposed to do next. I know I’ve got to keep moving forward, and in order to do that I have to come up with a plan, right? (Just agree with me and keep reading, I think I may be on to something here.)
This whole feeling better, yet hiding out in my house while also avoiding all responsibilities is getting old. I’m not accomplishing anything, and the stress of my duties piling up on me is starting to take its toll.
It’s time to knock myself back into reality.
New question. How exactly do I get past the lost and confused stage, and move on to the next? Wait. I have another question that I thought of while asking the last one. What IS the next stage? Oh no.
There are only a few choices here. Give up and fail, reverting back to the old me, or sort this mess out. Failing is not an option for me, I refuse. I guess I’m going to have to put on my big girl panties and find my way out of this mess.
Might even have to break out my gum boots for this one.
Since I’m literally writing this as I’m thinking it, I’m sort of winging this post. I think what I’m going to have to do is break this down into a series of several posts. I hope I’ll be able to accomplish a few things in doing this.
“Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.” – Henry David Thoreau
These are some things I think I should try:
1. How to get away from feeling lost and confused, and instead feel more in control of things.
2. Figure out what the next stage of my journey is – assuming there is one.
3. Come up with a plan to accomplish these things.
4. Journal my progress to understand what works vs. what doesn’t work, as well as being able to reflect on my feelings now, and my feelings as I move forward.
5. Keep all of you in the loop, so that if you find yourself feeling lost and confused, you’ll have some ideas on how to get out of this…funk.
This should be quite the adventure.
Any advice from anyone who’s been here before?
If you have been where I am now, and successfully gotten past this, any tips or advice would be appreciated! Because honestly, I have no idea what I’m doing or where to begin.
That being said, I’m going to try to do this anyway. I’m a little nervous, but excited. It’s sort of like going on a new adventure into the unknown. Who doesn’t love adventures?
I hope you’ll follow along with me on this yellow brick road of recovery. My goal in doing this is not only to help myself, but to help all of you who have gotten stuck. Regardless of how or why you’re feeling lost and confused, I hope this will help us all get back on our path to contentedness.
Those are my goals. All of you are my motivation. I’m not afraid of moving forward anymore. I don’t want you to be afraid either. We are brave, and we are strong.
We’ve got this.
Continue Reading – Lost and Confused: Road to Recovery – Part II