Feeling Down and Lost

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Jessica

Sometimes I have days where I’m feeling down and lost, and unsure of myself.

Since I’ve been on this journey of finding myself, and getting better, I’ve gotten to a place where I feel in limbo. That’s the only way I know how to describe it. I’m not where I used to be, yet, I’m not completely where I need to be. Does that make sense?

I have many more better days now, but every now and then, I’ll have a day where I’m just feeling down and lost, and unsure of myself. Because I’m changing (for the better), other aspects of my life are changing too, and it’s a little scary.

I think part of the reason is that I’m not sure how much will change as I continue to better myself and grow as a person. Can anyone else relate to these feelings?

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    Harriet

    Hi there Jessica, I’m Harriet. I’ve just come across your blog via iam1in4 and have really enjoyed various of your posts (especially the one with the quotes). I have bipolar type 1 and quotes have helped me through a lot. 😊 Anyway I can relate to feeling lost. I too have made so much progress which I am really proud of and on my good days things are good but I have other days (I call them my bipolar blue days) when (in a nutshell) the uncertainty of my future combined with other things proves too much, triggering my anxiety which can leave me feeling lost and hopeless. Sometimes prove easier than others to pick myself up out of these “blips” and I have an amazing medical team and support network to help me. However I was wondering if you have any tips to help pick yourself up out of your darker moments? I am currently in a bit of a blip and despite ticking everything off my feel good list (dog walking, feel good playlist, life & sleep routine, no drinking, self care treats...) I’m not able to shake these blues as quickly as usual. Thank you for your writing and sharing your story. Love and light. H xo 🍍

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      Hi! I'm so glad you found me! I'm sorry you're going through this darker moment. Those are definitely the hardest, and tend to be the hardest to fight. This may sound weird, but sometimes, I allow myself to fall into these darker moments. I do this to allow myself to feel everything, and as a reminder of how horrible they can be. I only give in for a little bit, and then I decide it's time to get up, I know I cannot stay there. I find that doing something new and different can help when the darker times try to take over, once I've allowed myself to acknowledge that it's there. I try to choose something I don't normally do, and push myself to do it. I keep reminding myself that it's a temporary feeling, and just like every other time I find myself here, it will pass. Just remember, it's ok to have these moments, as long as you're trying, you're doing everything you can! Sometimes running away from it can make it more difficult to fight, which is why, for a brief moment, I do embrace it, as crazy as that seems. I hope I'm explaining it right, lol. If you're still having trouble, please don't hesitate to get in touch with me! I hope this will help, and I hope you'll be feeling better soon!!

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    Harriet

    Hi Jess, thank you for coming back to me and your kind words. I really appreciate it. I get what you mean and think it is really important to let yourself feel things in order to process them and move forward. However, I get so scared of being all consumed by the darkness as my biggest fear in life is falling into a deep despression again and not being able to come out as it can be such a bottomless pit and if I let go fully I’ll just go into free fall. I hope that makes sense.
    I can’t explain it fully but I hit one of the lowest points I’ve hit in a while this weekend but (now this next part sounds a little doolally but hey ho..) I asked the universe for some kind of help or a sign & just after writing to you on Monday something happened which shook me to the core and in some roundabout way seems to have lifted the dark cloud that was hanging over me. (Touch Wood things seem to be ok again)
    Thank you so much for your advice about trying something new. I’m going to give it a go and see what I can find to take up. I look forward to reading more of your posts soon and maybe correspondending. Love and light. H xo 🍍

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      I definitely believe in the power of the universe! I'm so glad you had that experience! I do know what you mean, it will consume me too if I'm not careful. Something else that really helps me is my self-awareness. I work hard to be very aware of myself and how I'm feeling. This helps too, because it helps prevent me from getting stuck. Of course, there are those times where it's a little more of a struggle than others. I'd love to keep in touch, and I'm hoping to have some new posts soon, I've been a little busier than usual lately. Please reach out anytime! :)

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